A much needed changePosted: April 22, 2011
Confined to this room, these four walls
Where I have cried, fought demons
Of all kinds
And smiled, numerous smiles, a gazillion times.
Where I have lain sick, lain cold
And shivering, afraid
So very afraid, in need
Of a supportive arm, an understanding gaze
A warm heart, selfless
And pure, which I have grown to believe
Is a wondrous myth.
A change is in need, a change
Of scene, of
State of mind, of people
Who surrounds, suppresses and fills
The empty spaces, the shadows
Behind the blinds, the closets
With fear, with dread, with hateful remorse
And sadness. That wretched, wretched sadness.
Monotony chokes, squeezes the living breath
Out of a pulsating heart, it squirts
Foul blood, coagulating
On pure white surfaces of squeaky clean
A change is in need, to save myself
My soul, my spirit, my immortal mortal self
From the darkness that lies within and brews ugly woeful things
As I toss and turn in sleep. A change
Is in need.